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I check website's I go on everyday but I cannot be bothered to post anything due to lack of doing thing's.
I just feel abit down from everything and I feel that I'm a bad person to talk to and be around at this moment in time, due to me just letting everything out.. I trust people to quickly, and end up telling them and then they sort of back away from me. Yeh I'm lonely xD.
I just need to be around family at the moment, I don't know why, but friend's don't seem to be on my ejender(sp?), I've been on my own at college for a week now, and wondering around for an hour is no fun without saying a word to noone xD.
I've got a new DA account, I'll decide in the New Year if I'll post it up.
Just to say, it's DEFFIANTLY none of you guy's faults
you guys have helped me loads. I just don't feel like socialising outside my family for awhile xD.
I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and New Year! And I'll speak to you guys soon. Thankyou for everything!
-x-
I just feel abit down from everything and I feel that I'm a bad person to talk to and be around at this moment in time, due to me just letting everything out.. I trust people to quickly, and end up telling them and then they sort of back away from me. Yeh I'm lonely xD.
I just need to be around family at the moment, I don't know why, but friend's don't seem to be on my ejender(sp?), I've been on my own at college for a week now, and wondering around for an hour is no fun without saying a word to noone xD.
I've got a new DA account, I'll decide in the New Year if I'll post it up.
Just to say, it's DEFFIANTLY none of you guy's faults
you guys have helped me loads. I just don't feel like socialising outside my family for awhile xD.I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and New Year! And I'll speak to you guys soon
. Thankyou for everything! -x-
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Devious Journal Entry
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I can't get a Sub this month, so a Poll will have to be in my Journal . Thankyou if you can do it. It would REALLY help me out.
What should my DA consist of? I don't like that my gallery is too mixed.
Just your Drawings!
Just your Photography!
Just your Cosplay!
Everything!
Anything else, please say!
. Thankyou if you can do it. It would REALLY help me out.What should my DA consist of? I don't like that my gallery is too mixed.
Just your Drawings!
Just your Photography!
Just your Cosplay!
Everything!
Anything else, please say!
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Devious Journal Entry
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I'm cleaning out my gallery, to make way for new work and a new style, well old but touched up 
, though I'm keeping my Japan Photo's, Cosplay, Totoro and my LoZ Link Fanart
, though I'm keeping my Japan Photo's, Cosplay, Totoro and my LoZ Link Fanart
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I thought I'd tell people how I'm getting on and things ^_^, if your interested anyways.
I went to the doctors on Wednesday, the doctor prescribed me with some medication that I have to take daily and she instanly knew that my breathing 'problem' was me having Panic Attacks without me reasling it o___O;;. She told me to go back in 2 weeks, to see how the medication is working as it can take 7-10 days to kick into my system.
I did try going to college on Monday.. but it did'nt work out... so I'm going to try again next week. I've been going to my Auntie's work and home while my Mum goes to work. I've gotten alot better in the daytime now, and I'm getting out of bed on my own now Lol. But after a few hours I start to feel the anxiety more and think.. then it get's worse ;___;. Nighttime is still a BIG problem for me.. I HATE it 
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Like I said, the daytime has gotten better for me and I found doing my Grandad's shopping on Saturday was a big break for me. I got nervous and anxious on my own walking to the busstop but then once I was shopping for him I felt fine. Though like I said.. even with company, I feel more anxious after a few hours.
I went out on Friday(with my Mum and Auntie) and Saturday evening, to a fire works display my Mum's friend's partner did it was REALLY nice seeing their children and seeing some new faces I had ALOT of fun ^_^ AND I PLAYED JACKALL IN THE DARK! O___O I WAS'NT SCARED OF THE DARK WHEN IT WAS FULL OF PEOPLE xD.
My personal tutor called my Mum and asked how I was as I havent been to college (even though I rang them up explaining -.-:;;.) She was really conserned for me, saying they hope they don't loose me as a Graphics Student *____*. She want's me to call her and I have to email one of my Graphic Design teachers for homework as I'm a good girl and slowly doing homework to catch up .
Today I went to my Auntie's work in the evening too, to help and sing with a Church Group that sing's to the residant's of the home my Auntie works at. It was so nice ^__^. I cannot sing at all but it was much fun.
It's gonna take time to get better, I've never liked the dark so hopefully counselling (again) will help. Though I have been improving.
HOPE I'M WAAAAY BETTER FOR EXPO O___O. THIS ANXIETY PROBLEM HAS GONE ON FOR YEARS WITHOUT ME REALISING PROPERLY O___O.
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I got to get Christmas present's this and next month. It's fun buying things! Haha. I'm gonna be drawing thing's for some of my family, seeming as they like my drawings ^____^ (yay!), other thing's I will make too I said I'll make a friend of mine a Pikachu hat ^__^ She's 10 and so adorable .
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I plan to do a Pokemon Cosplay to every Expo I go to (if I go for 2 days )
Future Cosplay's:
Drifloon Gijinka ~ Pokemon
Hikaru ~ Angelic Layer
Dawn (special) ~ Pokemon
Son Goku ~ Saiyuki Reload
Cosplay's I Might Do:
Lilymon ~ Digimon
Sakura ~ Naruto Shippuden
Cosplay's Completed:
Azumarill Gijinka ~ Pokemon
ANBU Sakura ~ Naruto
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My Subscription has ended Booooooooooooooooo.
Hope everyone is doing well!
I went to the doctors on Wednesday, the doctor prescribed me with some medication that I have to take daily and she instanly knew that my breathing 'problem' was me having Panic Attacks without me reasling it o___O;;. She told me to go back in 2 weeks, to see how the medication is working as it can take 7-10 days to kick into my system.
I did try going to college on Monday.. but it did'nt work out... so I'm going to try again next week
. I've been going to my Auntie's work and home while my Mum goes to work. I've gotten alot better in the daytime now, and I'm getting out of bed on my own now Lol. But after a few hours I start to feel the anxiety more and think.. then it get's worse ;___;. Nighttime is still a BIG problem for me.. I HATE it .Like I said, the daytime has gotten better for me and I found doing my Grandad's shopping on Saturday was a big break for me. I got nervous and anxious on my own walking to the busstop but then once I was shopping for him I felt fine
. Though like I said.. even with company, I feel more anxious after a few hours.I went out on Friday(with my Mum and Auntie) and Saturday evening, to a fire works display my Mum's friend's partner did
it was REALLY nice seeing their children and seeing some new faces I had ALOT of fun ^_^ AND I PLAYED JACKALL IN THE DARK! O___O I WAS'NT SCARED OF THE DARK WHEN IT WAS FULL OF PEOPLE xD.My personal tutor called my Mum and asked how I was as I havent been to college (even though I rang them up explaining -.-:;;.) She was really conserned for me, saying they hope they don't loose me as a Graphics Student *____*. She want's me to call her and I have to email one of my Graphic Design teachers for homework
as I'm a good girl and slowly doing homework to catch up .Today I went to my Auntie's work in the evening too, to help and sing with a Church Group that sing's to the residant's of the home my Auntie works at
. It was so nice ^__^. I cannot sing at all but it was much fun.It's gonna take time to get better, I've never liked the dark so hopefully counselling (again) will help. Though I have been improving
.HOPE I'M WAAAAY BETTER FOR EXPO O___O. THIS ANXIETY PROBLEM HAS GONE ON FOR YEARS WITHOUT ME REALISING PROPERLY O___O.
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I got to get Christmas present's this and next month
. It's fun buying things! Haha. I'm gonna be drawing thing's for some of my family, seeming as they like my drawings ^____^ (yay!), other thing's I will make too I said I'll make a friend of mine a Pikachu hat ^__^ She's 10 and so adorable .-----
I plan to do a Pokemon Cosplay to every Expo I go to
(if I go for 2 days )Future Cosplay's:
Drifloon Gijinka ~ Pokemon
Hikaru ~ Angelic Layer
Dawn (special) ~ Pokemon
Son Goku ~ Saiyuki Reload
Cosplay's I Might Do:
Lilymon ~ Digimon
Sakura ~ Naruto Shippuden
Cosplay's Completed:
Azumarill Gijinka ~ Pokemon
ANBU Sakura ~ Naruto
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My Subscription has ended
Booooooooooooooooo.Hope everyone is doing well!
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